Mosquito Hunting:
In the small dark hours
After the power has died
Headlamp strapped on tight
Ripping small lives out of existance
The battle for a peaceful night's sleep
Their bites make me bloodthirsty
(Thirsty for my own blood stolen from me)
And so I rampage
The boundaries of my hole-infested mosquito net
becomes a battle cage
Clapping hands swipe
and the litle bastard escapes
again and again
and again, and now my hands
are schmeared with human blood
and I can regain
Blissful unconciousness.

That happens about three times a night.

Want to address the last post, and Sarah's great comment about it, which I appriciated a lot. What I said was not actually what I beleive; I think I am too quick to say that I beleive something. It's a theory--I'm looking for a way to incorporate spirituality into my worldview. What Sarah said actually convinced me a little more of the idea instead of less--It's not really a human conciousness at the base of matter, it would be more of a divine, eternal conciousness. In that context, it makes sense that no matter how hard we try, we can never actually see it or understand it. All religions consider God as unknowable by the human mind, even though it is within us. All we can do are see its effects. But by looking closely and scientifically at it's effects, we may understand a little more. At this point, the difference between my worldview and Sarah's is simply a matter of vocabulary--she is more highly and scientifically educated in the matter, so she can describe what she is seeing in her experiments with her vocabulary, and I can describe it as conciousness. One thing is sure--at that minute level of matter, it does not work according to Newton's hard-and-fast rules of objects, it works in a much more variable, unpredictable way, much like the way our minds work. Who knows.

By the way, I highly reccomend this book, the Srimad Bagavata. It's got a lot of philosophy along the same lines as the Bhagavat-Gita, but it's much more extensively explained, and less cryptic, and is also the repository of some of the best mythological stories in hinduism. This quote is from the Bagavata, when Bhrata says:

"Again, this earth is constituted of tiny particles of atoms, which are nothing but the beginningless creative energy (Maya) of the Lord, which makes all things to which we give names: gross and subtle elements, qualities, attributes, time, destiny, predispositions, nature, etc. All these things are produced by His power of Illusion. Conciousness alone is real, perfect, changeless, know as Vasudeva or Bhagavan."

Pretty sophisticated for a book written much much before the Odyssey or the Illaid was written, yes? Take it as whatever it is. I'm running out of internet time.
much love
jed

By the way, my email address is jed.bickman@gmail.com Feel free to email me any thoughts or ideas or questions instead of posting a comment on the board if you want.